break, break,break

Each day things get a little better between me && [boy] still seperated on what were calling a "break"...its still very complicated and challenging for me to actually see him && not want to run up and kiss && hug him but i guess its life and a learning experience. Funny thing is its harder when the love of your life is also your bestfriend....yup that can make it a little bit more complicated..lol..i feel at times i lie to myself thinking that i can be his "friend" when I know that we were && have been soo much more for so many years. I do believe that this is a good experience for both him && i but im having a really hard time with it all...im not the type to wear my emotions on my sleeve but with him its a different story. For 6 almost 7 years i shared my heart and soul with this guy but now when i open up to him he seems very uninterested in what I have to say && how I feel and his only excuse is "im giving you what you wanted, i cannotshare my emotions with you because then "it wont work" " so im starting to realize that we cannot be friends...being cordial and moving on is the only solution that I've come up with so far. Its hard && it hurts but its something that i must do..only time will tell what will happen between us and hopefully spring break will get me over it!..lol...countdown for MIAMI is a GO!!! && when i come back lets all hope that you can see my smile from a mile away && that

true happiness comes to visit me again..im out for now dolls!

"i hope the miami sands dry my tears"

her[highness],your highness