saying it [a l l]

Everything is fine and dandy until the answer is NO and to deal with you is no longer first priority. When your world was mine and mine yours, the sun shined so bright, and it seemed as if the birds always sang our favorite tune, but now the nights are cold and the birds are gone and reality has showed up, tapped me on the shoulder and punched me in the face. ::The rain falls daily and it always seems cold.::It used to be that your face is what lit up my life but now it has no effect and seems to have lost its shine. Scared of how I will survive and cope, I cap the feelings in this bottle I [call my soul] and try to act and put on a show for those who hold us so high and who try and mirror our love. Feeling like im on a show and my life, actions, and attitude are on display. I'm unable to actually show and act the way I feel. Getting caught up in all the hype of what others think, say, feel, want, has driven a hole into our precious, timeless, what we thought was UNBREAKABLE heart. Allowing the world to peep into what we held so close and felt so deep was the first mistake. "Once you have allowed others into something that has been crafted, created, and sculpted solely by you, it is destroyed. They dont know how to cater to it, hold it, or act towards it; because they were not there during its creation." The object, "masterpiece" will soon come falling down and burn with the fire from those same people. When it burns and you dont even know its burning, is "the biggest tragedy";because as you walk around thinking that your picasso is still in tact. The world sees that it is burnt, worn out, and ugly. The sad part about it is soon enough an innocent bystander comes by to pick up a piece to try and piece it back together. [to be continued] ....

xoxo [her.highness] your highness