&& the tears still fall; forever gone

i dont know why i put myself through this everytime. f.y.i twitter can be the devil at times!

yes i went on his page today..saw some things that hurt my feelings..he's really moved on. cant really say that i'm surprised he was the one who said he didnt love me anymore..soo y not move on? he's moved on a long time ago && left me standing in the middle of a fork road not really knowing what to do.....but guess what! it motivates me to be better to do better for me

&& MOVE ON! its going to take awhile && i am more than ready for this journey.

i've been hurt soo much, things dont get to me anymore...except what I just saw.

I think the thing that gets me the most is the fact that he's looking at someone else the way he used to look at me, that he's giving off emotions and time the way he used to give to me && yet he still hasnt spoken to me or even ask to have a conversation with me which means he doesnt care about me anymore, that hurts..to know someone that you love with your heart and soul doesnt give to shits about you (sorry for the language). but you know what? i must take this time as time to get everything together && find the inner savage within me. open my eyes to those who do care, not blaming them or making them pay for the mistakes, hurt, and pain that this guy has put me through. Grant it i probably have hurt him as well, but thats something that i am unsure of because of the non communication between us. so all i can do is take all of it as a lesson learned, a phase, and hope for the best. forgiving him for the pain that he has caused but not forgetting it. its time to build me up, to stregthen the woman inside of me. tears may be shed, nerves may be wrecked, mind may be boggled, and the thoughts of him may be constant sometimes but i will NEVER go back, NEVER loving him the way I used to, NEVER looking at him, NEVER knowing who or what he has become, NEVER looking back, NEVER having anything to do with him, NEVER wanting him to walk the same road i do, NEVER breathing the same air i breathe, NEVER wanting to be friends, NEVER speaking, NEVER EVER EVER loving another again. I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK TO THIS HURTFUL MAN. I thought it would be forever, but clearly forever doesnt last always.

Good Riddance to the love i had for you, Goodbye to any happy thoughts I had for you, Farewell to you & your life!

&& i hope your new girl loves you soo much better than I did && i hope she doesnt hurt like i do daily and i hope she never has to go through the pain you put me through.

Have a great life!

Farewell to my once Prince Charming.